Wednesday

I woke up today, for the first time in months, feeling absolutely whole and like myself again. I feel like my life belongs to me. I think it's because my mother-in-law is gone. No more stress over having her too close to me. She bought me a Rachael Ray cookbook while she was here, insisting that I would love it. I dislike Rachael Ray. She smiles too much. She's WAY too happy. I put the cookbook where it can no longer be seen. I think the second reason is that I've been eating small amounts regularly, and that's good for me, even if I don't like it. I'll keep doing that, and maybe someday I won't dislike it (food) anymore.

I ran sprints on the treadmill this morning--which is really not fun for me, but increases my stamina. Then I took Darrin, Jr. to school. I raced home to take a shower before I had to drive the carpool to their school.

I went to work and finished up some extended tax returns. These always seem to be the most complicated--and have the least adequate record keeping. Around 12:30 I left to go home and eat lunch. While I was thinking about how I needed to eat, a friend called and asked me to go out to lunch with her. I jumped at the chance, knowing I WOULD eat if someone was with me. We had a really lovely lunch, caught up on family news, friends, gossiped tons...it was fun, and I DID eat.

I got home at 2:30, and prepared for my teen group lesson. I made cinnamon rolls and got the stuff together that I needed for our Mozart lesson. This is a fun group, but about half of them will leave early today because they have district music festival this afternoon. They all arrived at 3:30 and our lesson ended at 5:00. With the exception of one student, I will not be teaching during the months of June-August (except I will teach some seminars at the university during the summer--music history, private lessons, ensembles--all seminars will take place during the same week, then I'm finished till the last week of August). I REALLY need the break. I might go nuts with all the time on my hands, but that's alright.

I ran to get pizza--the Wednesday meal of choice--so Tabitha could eat before her activity tonight. The boys don't have activities this week, so they were relaxing a bit. I ate a spinach salad and half a slice of pizza. It was enough. Darrin has MORE meetings tonight, so he dropped Tabitha and the carpool girls off at their activity. I borrowed my dad's pick-up and mapped out a running course in an off-road area for tomorrow. Then I went to Walmart and bought some running clothes that are smaller and will fit. I'm not spending money on expensive stuff till I get back to normal and know what my size will be.

I got home around 8:00, sent Tabitha to the shower, and checked on the boys' homework. The kids were in bed by 8:30, and asleep around 9:00. I sent out some e-mail, then got ready for bed, waiting for Darrin. He arrived home around 10:00. We went to bed and I was asleep almost immediately.