Normal

Sometimes I just want to be like everyone else.

I know that's stupid because every person is different.

I suppose what I mean is that I'd like life to be fairly straightforward with no second guesses or hidden meanings.

Just when I begin to see what I need to do to grow and progress, life throws me a curve ball, reminding me that nothing is easy, and really there is no place, no person who is always safe--and I will always have an added dimension which makes me hypersensitive to things many accept as normal. For just a moment I had forgotten that, and it was beautiful.

Someone asked me yesterday what it is about a person that makes me want to get close to him or her. It's actually very simple. I know the people I wish to keep as friends because when I am with them I don't hurt. It's as if, just for a moment I can shelve the pain inside me and I feel relief. My questioner looked astounded and wanted to know if I feel emotional pain all the time. Yes, of course. Doesn't everyone?

Apparently they don't. I didn't know that.